Why Are We Friends?

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 I know you all must be sick of hearing about me teaching, but it's my whole life. If you haven't heard about my school, crazy things happen often. There's some sort of fight every day, almost every kid is from a bad home situation, and there is little to no admin support. That being said, behaviors are out of control multiple days. I know all teachers get overwhelmed and burnt out, but I swear it has to be so much more with teachers at title 1 schools like this one. 

The reason I'm bringing this up is because I've been thinking about why I don't want to quit. There are other teachers at the school that are so so so close to quitting and are so fed up with the school. But why am I not at this point like they are? I know I am younger and newer so it might take more to break my love for teaching than others but I don't know if that's it. I honestly think the reason is because it's so refreshing to click and connect with the other teachers. I have always struggled to get past the surface level friendship with people, to the point where I can actually trust them. But at my job, I trust so many of the teachers with my life. Which is very weird for me. I feel like I can tell them anything and they all understand and I can trust them with whatever I need. I was just thinking about it this week and how I have never had this experience with people at my work or school in the past. So even when everything feels insane and I think my whole day is falling apart, I have started to appreciate my people. 

My mom once told me that the key to becoming close to someone is that you both need to be vulnerable together. Whether we’re going through something difficult together or finding ourselves in a situation where we’re both vulnerable, it'll bring us closer. So maybe teaching is the difficult situation where we're all vulnerable and struggling and that's why I'm developing these good relationships? Who knows. Maybe I shouldn't question it, but I'm just really grateful for those around me at school. I would trust them all with my life and that's crazy coming out of my mouth. 

Life updates: 

1. Volleyball is over, so now I feel like I have all the time in the world

2. We watched a Duke volleyball game the other day and now I want to go to them all!

3. I was so sick last week and now every single teacher on my hall is super sick and I blame myself

4. Thanksgiving & Christmas are coming up and I can feel the excitement!


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