I Have Become a Crybaby

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I don't know if it was getting married, becoming a teacher, or getting deeper into my 20s or what but I am so much more of a softy! I was never one to cry at weddings but now I cry at them all. I had a parent teacher conference this week and I teared up thinking of how wonderful the parents were to their child. I found a Spanish copy of the book we were reading in class for one of my students who is still learning English, and he spent 20 minutes writing me a note that said "Thank you Mrs. Vickers. You are nice" and I almost lost it. Anddddd, I was looking through wedding pictures and videos and just the thought that Clayton and I have only known each other for 4 years and it's felt like a lifetime, made me emotional. I need to chill but it feels like everything these days! I can't even imagine what I'll be like when I have kids. I don't think I'll ever stop crying. 

If you know me, you would know that I've always been sensitive but closed off. But that was sensitivity like if someone was mean to me. Which is still very much me, but now with the happy tears??? There's no hope for me. 

Or any picture of Clayton with Penelope or Sophie. Gets me every time. 

So if you're wondering what I'm up to, I'm probably happy crying for any of the reasons above. Or any more I think of as the day goes on. 

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