Love-Hate Relationships
1. Volleyball
This one was no surprise and I've talked about it before. I've talked about it before.
Love: The sport, the team work, the dynamic of building up each point with your team, seeing young girls learn to love it themselves, teaching the importance discipline, will power, and mental toughness.
Hate: The stress of letting your teammates down when you make a mistake, getting in your head about the game and it making you play worse, girl drama. And the worst of all, 2 of my girls getting kicked off the team for their bad grades! Was actually terrible news!
We played our first game last week and they did pretty well! I could see all of them trying really hard and wanting to be their best! They did lose unfortunately, but we're already making good changes and adjustments for next week. Coaching has pushed me way more in the love column and it has made me so excited to work with these girls for the rest of the season.
2. Teaching
Clayton always makes fun of how much I either come home loving teaching or hating it. It really depends on the day sometimes!
Love: Feeling confident that I am a good teacher and was meant to teach, seeing that I am already making a difference to the kids' academics, when the students ask about me, my life, and about clayton (my favorite is when a kid will raise their hand and whisper in my ear "how's clayton?", the students who ask if I could be their parent because they don't have one at home, when students dress up as me for spirit weeks, and so so so much more.
Hate: When kids STEAL from me!!! If you're not a teacher this one seems insane. It's like anything on my desk is up for grabs and I've had to formally tell my students to not touch someone else's things! I've lost so many of my good pens and pencils that were for them! Also when they leave my classroom a disaster! I don't know how they manage to trash my room in the short time they are inside. Also, the aggression! There are so many kids that threaten to fight or kill other students and actually try to follow through with it. This has something to do with the absent parents for a lot of these kids, but it's actually insane how many almost fights there are. There was also this new girl who is a new nightmare with an attitude. One of the teachers called her mom and it was very clear the attitude, yelling, and disrespect came from mom! Middle schoolers are also a different breed depending on the day, no kid acts the same every day I swear!
All things considered, the thought of ever leaving this job makes me so sad, even when considering the difficulties. I eventually wanted to work with high schoolers but now I'm thinking I might be made for middle school. The teachers in my grade are actually the best support system and are honestly just some of the best people.
3. Pasta
Love: If you know me, you know my love for pasta has been constant and unwavering. Any type of pasta has been my favorite food since I can remember. It's also so easy to make and I never need a recipe to make my favorites!
Hate: I never make it anymore because now it makes me feel bad! I swear, pasta and potatoes are not eaten very much anymore because I just feel heavy and blah afterwards! Now I have to decide on a new favorite food...
4. Living in NC
Love: I LOVE where we live in Raleigh! It has by far been my favorite place I've ever lived! You get some southern hospitality, but not a super southern culture shock, there are always fun things to do in all directions around us, the best food, we both love our jobs, we love our apartment and all the amenities that come with it, and just so much more! And the weather might just be my favorite thing! I don't even check the weather anymore, but am always content in a short sleeve. If you know me you know I hate wearing layers or even feeling clothes on my body (which was not the case when we lived in Idaho). I could really see us living here a long time!
Hate: Buttttttt, we miss our family and friends. We are so far from everyone we love. I keep telling Clayton someone needs to get married so that we can have a reason to see everyone again soon! There are so many things we want to do and say "If only our friends were here". Now Clayton, if you're reading this don't get offended. But it's always just us two! I like to spend time with other people we love and have been missing! And if we have to book a cruise to see people we love, then I will take that sacrifice. And don't get me wrong, we've been making work friends for sure! But it's just different than lifelong friends and family we already have!
5. Gift giving holidays
Love: There is no better feeling than watching someone open a present that you are so excited to get them and know that they'll love! And I love opening presents and feeling known and loved by those around me!
Hate: I stress about what to get people for their birthday or Christmas MONTHS before the actual day. You don't ever want to get someone a present just to get them a present, but sometimes it is so hard to think of a good present to give to someone you love! And it doesn't help that Clayton always gets me the best presents and I spend months getting him a mediocre present. And the Christmas stress has already begun for me so wish me luck!
So someone tell me if these love-hate relationship feelings are just me being dramatic, or if everyone feels this way about so many things.
Here's a pic of Callie, whom I LOVE and do not hate. :)
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