Simply Me

Today I had a random urge to write about my thoughts and feelings, utilizing this blog as an outlet. Today I have been having strong feelings of appreciation and gratitude for my life with Clayton. I can not believe how lucky I was to have met him in our circumstances. From being raised in completely different places, meeting somewhere we both thought we’d never end up, and now building a life together across the country. Today we spent the day completely relaxing with nothing on the agenda. We went to the pool and talked for hours just swimming. People always told me about relationships where they could just talk and laugh hysterically for hours on end, which I never experienced until I met Clayton. I couldn’t even relay what we talked about but we never stopped talking and laughing. For so many years, I struggled with finding a best friend. I had good friends in middle school that I thought were my whole world, but randomly decided to cut me out. Even doing so in the horrific way of ...

So much has happened this month I don't know where to start. At the beginning of this month, Clayton started his job and he is loving it. I started my job on the 14th, which was good because I was losing my marbles being home by myself waiting to start. The not so good news is that I'm barely a week in and have been so sick and completely lost my voice. I'm pretty sure I have laryngitis (very commonly diagnosed to teachers, caused from a big exposure of germs and talking too much/too loudly) which checks out. If you want to see if you're a good teacher, try to teach a classroom with no voice. It's a humbling experience for sure.  Even though I've been dying these past few days, I am not having a terrible time here at this school. All the teachers have been so nice and helpful making me feel welcome and supported. I have not had one bad experience with any of the staff here which is great! I just found out a few days ago that they want me to stay for next school ...

 My whole life I’ve felt like it was a race. In elementary school I needed to memorize all my times tables instantly and faster than everyone else. In middle school I needed to be in all the pre ap classes they would let me do so that I could be ahead academically. In high school I was racing to graduate and move as soon as I could. In college I fast tracked my 4 years so that I could graduate early and start working as soon as possible. Even now after I have graduated, I’ve been racing to buy every piece of furniture or decor I need for our apartment within the first week of living here. I even texted my mom that I finally hung up a picture and she responded with “you’ve only been there 3 days”.  Since moving here, I’ve felt the urge to rush more than I have before and I don’t know why. Clayton started his new job this past Monday but I haven’t started yet. Being alone for more time has forced me to reflect on and rethink what I want to do each day. I was talking to Caitlyn y...

We graduated! It was so much fun having everyone in town to help us move and celebrate! We ended up being able to move out of our apartment a day earlier than planned which ended up being so nice. We had a 33 hour drive ahead of us in our u-haul going from Idaho to North Carolina. We were told that since the u-haul was pulling our car, we would only be able to drive 55 mph tops! Our original plan was to split this up into 3 very long driving days (9 hours, 15 hours, and 15 hours with accounting for our driving speed and stops).  The first day we drove to see Clayton’s grandparents which was nice! I’d never been to their house before so I got a chance to look through all of her old photos from Clayton’s side of the family. Once we left their house in the morning, we never stopped driving. We ended up being able to go 90 mph in the u-haul and we kept trading off driving and napping. It was a mix of not wanting to pay for a hotel and just wanting to get to North Carolina and sleep in ...

There are multiple reasons why I had the sudden urge to start a blog.  1: I was inspired by my cousin Becca as she was open to sharing her recent life experiences.  2: I stopped journaling when I went off to college a few years ago and wanted to write about my life through a different outlet.  3: I want documentation of my feelings, memories, and experiences for years to come.  Since this is my first post, I want to set the scene of what life is currently like. This will definitely be my most formal post on this blog. Clayton and I are currently preparing to move out of our first apartment to North Carolina. Graduation is next week and we are both walking together! We had professional graduation pictures taken last week and I'm feeling sentimental about our time here. We took most of these photos outside of the building where we met back in 2021 as young 18 year olds at our freshman orientation. As much as we have suffered through the hardships that come with univers...